happy birthday richard kelly!

went to titties for the man of the year's birthday last night. got home with a big daddy mug woooo

my fave

hung out with amandapanda for a while, she made me a portrait eeehhh...

WHO HIRED YOU?

"U DID"


life is weird. been taking up time lately chillin', skating & playing music. trying to keep my mind off stupid unexpected shit. getting my life fixed up, i have hella money saved up which now i have no use for since i was saving it for a special reason. but not anymore. so i'll add more & see what it will be used for. i was supposed to take a placement test at skyline yesterday but i flaked. i read online that if i already took a test and/or if i took an english or math class at another college, i'm exempt from the test. so i called in today to make an appointment to see a counselor but turns out i don't even need to. stoked. so i'll get my registration date on the 21st & hopefully i can get into that english class. i just realized that i only really have a little bit of classes to take before i transfer out. by this time next year i'll be done with the community college life. woooo. finally though. richard kelly's birthday was yesterday & so tonight we're going down to titties to eat. i'mma get fucked up & celebrate. tomorrow commissure is playing a movie promo party for warner bros. movie "the losers" at the ave bar on ocean ave. hope that goes great. i spoke to a special lady yesterday & we're gonna start hanging out a lot more, she suggested everyday. i don't mind that. we'll smoke ciggies & talk about life since that's what we do best. kinda looking forward to this weekend i guess.

happy hour

hit up via hooters for happy hour. wasn't the same heh. i tried the 3 mile hot sauce. mmmmmmmm

snail life

if ya ever find yourself smoking with a snail, be careful to not ash on it, they will fizz up with hella bubbles. kinda rad to see actually.

loko for death.

so lonely but never alone

Point A To Point B oh I Know
lots of points with no points in between for me
So lonely but never alone I know
I'm at my house but I wish that I were at home
Point A To Point B oh I know
lots of points but no back passage scheduled for me
Dig Hard
or don't try at all
Dig Hard
or get down on all fours
and dig hard
only you know you know how
that broke
only time uh oh
I've been working on the railroad time uh oh

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loko for death

Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that.

Now you're all gone got your make-up on and you're not coming back.
Can't you come back?

Bleaching your teeth, smiling flash, talking trash, under your breath.

Bleaching your teeth, smiling flash, talking trash, under my window.

Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me.

.

There isn't much that I feel I need
A solid soul and the blood I bleed
With a little girl, and by my spouse
I only want a proper house

I don't care for fancy things
Or to take part in the vicious race
But to provide for mine who ask
I will, with heart, on my father's grave

I don't mean to seem like I care about material things
Like our social stats
I just want four walls and adobe slats for my girls




extrano mi babylady :/

i still hear trumpets

fling

Since my fling with you time went from popping off three times a day to popping off three times a week
And it takes me a long time
To come to the memory of us

One week later there's melody
Doing what I always waited for
And I didn't stop her
But I didn't lead her on

wanna tell ya that i miss ya but i'm pissed ya blew me off

it's official... my phone is dead.


so long. goodbye & thanks for all the memories.



will i miss it? probably, but for now i'm cool. done it before anyways.


snail mail me, ehhhhhhhh. care packages<3

lagging at life

i was going through my old xanga posts & i came across this, from 2004 a little after graduating high school.

"10 things I want to do before I turn 25 {in no specific order}.

1] go skate.
2] film a video part that i am extremely proud of. one that is better than my part in "The 13 Video." which will be kinda hard to do.
3] move out and rent out an apartment and share it with my friends.
4] road trip to LA w/ the guys on 13 and guests.
5] drive down to SoCal to watch fingers cut megamachine perform.
6] tackle Michelle's suckass.
7] get my tattoos done.
8] do something romantic for tatty and then have her do something romantic for me. (that way we can write essays about "the most romantic thing someone has done for you.") mwuahahahaha.
9] take those in the OP bathroom (kerry's idea.)
10] find a major that i am happy with, so i can get a job i like."

well here we are almost 24, let's see how i'm doing so far:

1] everytime i can
2] done. i'm extremely proud to have filmed & finished buzz kill. but now i gotta top THAT, filming for come back.
3] still live at home... i was actually saving up to move out w/ a lady but that would've complicated things so i decided to save up to move out w/ friends, heh.
4] gone down to LA on 2 occasions, none of 'em skating but i have been able to skate out there with some of my best homies, as 13 doesn't really exist as much anymore.
5] fingers cut megamachine is now just devon williams solo. he plays SF but i have yet to see him play, just messages back & forth via myspace.
6] nah
7] i got ONE tattoo done, but the one i've been wanting hasn't happened yet.
8] never did anything romantic for tatty, except maybe give her a skateboard. but i have gone on to being romantic to a girl i dated afterwards. i suck at romance but tried anyways.
9] haha never fucked in there & now that i think about it, i'm cool off that. fucked in the back patio of a bar though...
10] took me long enough, but i'm majoring in sociology looking at a career of guidance counselor and/or teacher. not done yet, but i'm almost there.


kinda crazy how i planned this out. looking back, it's kinda whatevs. more about fun than actual life shit. but it kinda sucks cuz my life is almost the same now. haha. what the fuck. i got one year left & the only real thing i'm trying to get done with now is school. fucking school.

my stomach is flipping inside out

put the phone on ya butt it's the booty call
and I'm comin' ta bust nuts on all ya'll
and I'm out
half a blunt hangin' out my mouth
speedin' like a demon on 101 south
I smoke chewy like a muthafuckin' nut
ya got a gram bag get the zags an' roll 'er up
it's Andre Nickatina tiger comin' out the cuts
maximum speed drivin' I don't give a fuck
garcia blunt fully hunt down the cat
these bitches on the street muthafucka were you at
dippin' on swayze wit my niggas from tha set
the blunt went out but we ain't done yet
get another one blaze
bitch get paid
a welfare that check every 15 days
i remember highschool lowfuel and bushy
cuttin' that muthafucka go gettin' pussy
caught up in the madness
this freak was the baddest
I seen her baggy jeans and her ass was the fattest
ooh it's jenine
she licked my dick clean
come right away she got a twomp sac of weed
nigga I'm sippin
my potna's got the tay' stay sippin'
talkin about money,hoes,hustlin' and pimpin'
I'm over
doja like this fine bitch
shinin' like a car or my news stands smith
cut the fade
hoes get wet from the wave
dancin' in a cage with ass for days
it's like this
I didn't know you smoke chewy bitch
now bring the yale too so we can fire up a spliff
about six
my pager's talkin' to me sayin' "shit
the battery's low in this son of a bitch"
yeah 15's pound like this
15's screamin' out bitch
15's bumpin' gangsta shit
mind on a muthafuckin' grip

i'm not sure who i am...

but i know who i've been.


life's been pretty crazy ever since i got back from tour. just lost my lady of 5 years & my best friend lost her's of 4 years too, all in the same week. so now we hang out with each other more. meeting new girls isn't part of the plan as our exes suspect but we're going girl-free just to be away from those unwanted distractions. just need your amigos haha. so we're trying to figure out this whole situation together, whatevs. it kinda works out too cuz my phone is about to die any minute, crashing to death, and so i'll be cut through communication, unless it's through this, e-mail or my favorite, snail mail. send me packages.

so now with this new free time of being an emo baby i can upload pictures that i've been saving to post on this shit. FINALLY. i gotta figure out why blogger fucked up my mobile blogging. hmmm...

i know i'll never be the man that she thinks she really needs...

but it don't stop me from trying to be.

Whenever You Breathe Out, I Breathe in (Positive Negative)

Hey, haven't seen you around in a while
I didn't go to work for a month
I didn't leave my bed for eight days straight
I haven't hung out with anyone
Cause if I did, I'd have nothing to say.
I didn't feel angry or depressed
I didn't feel anything at all
I didn't want to go to bed
And I didn't want to stay up late.
When you're living your life, well, that's the price you pay
Whenever I breath out, you're breathing it in
Whenever I speak out, you're speaking out
I didn't go to work for a month
I didn't leave my bed for eight days straight
I haven't hung out with anyone
'Cause if I did, I'd have nothing to say

♥

COMMISSURE @ SUBMISSION TOMORROW

we're back from tour. shit was sooo fucking fun i wanna go back on the road already. guess we're already starting to plan the next tour - northwest. yeeeaaahhh!!

anyways, come welcome us & orchestra of antlers back from our tour. also, ordstro will be playing their first show since their tour. peninsula homies sleepers & adventure playground will also be playing with their sick ass music & sister crayon from sacramento will play also. they're good too.

come check it out, this will probably be one of the best sub-mission shows we've done.





ALSO:

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see ya tomorrow, world.

commissure southwest tour

we head out on tour today. if you or anyone ya know lives around the spots we'll be hitting, come down!